Nine Years Without You.

This year is nine.

Nine years since I last looked into your eyes.

Nine years since I felt your warm embrace.

Nine years since you left us, even though you weren’t ready and didn’t want to.

You fought like a warrior but destiny had other plans for you and, just like that, we were left with an emptiness, a void, a gaping hole that still resonates as strongly as it did that fateful, tragic day.

They say time heals all wounds, but it’s impossible to fully heal and move forward without such an important part of our lives firmly planted by our sides. Sure, we move forward, because we have to, but we are never quite the same.

My saving grace, the one thing that keeps me from completely giving up is the strong belief I have that my father is up there watching over me, guiding me.  He’s cheering with me in my moments of triumph and consoling me in my moments of defeat.  I take solace in that, even though nothing could ever be the same as having him here with me.

As my father would often say, ‘these are the cards I was given’, and so I have to play my hand as best I can and hope that that’s enough.  As I continue to make my way through my own game of life, I’ll do my best….

To keep my father’s legacy alive by sharing his memory whenever I can.

To smile every time I see a butterfly cross my path reminding me that I’m never alone.

To live a full life, one that would make my father proud.

To be strong, no matter how hard it is.

Daddy, there is not a day that goes by that I don’t think of you.  You may be gone from my sight, but you are never gone from my heart!

Mi manchi…ma proprio tanto! TVB!




  1. Carmela Gagliardi

    December 3, 2016 at 5:40 pm

    I lost my dad eight years ago and I know exactly how you feel. Your words are very meaningful because it sounds like our fathers were very similar. So yes live every day to the fullest and know that he will always be by your side! Take care!

    1. LuLu

      December 4, 2016 at 11:22 am

      Thank you Carmela! It’s certainly hard to live without them! Un abbraccio!

  2. Mary Tsaktsiris

    November 28, 2016 at 5:05 pm

    Sending hugs your way today. xo

    1. LuLu

      November 29, 2016 at 5:02 am

      Thank you, Mary! It’s much appreciated. xoxo

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